vera

i’m the one that people meet when they don’t know we’re all together, for better or worse. sometimes i let the others peek through, when they have something useful (or funny) to say, but otherwise i want to keep a somewhat-unified front for people who may not react well, or otherwise just don’t know.

it’s frustrating that i can’t break down my own identity the same way i break down a problem to write a program for it. things are too squishy and muddled and they bleed over themselves way too quickly. it’s hard to look at myself and know what’s there, you know? it’s different from looking in the mirror and checking out our hair, or whatever.